Heartache
I am a forgotter. Does this word exist? XD . I mean, I forgot things easily somethings though without my own notice.
I forgot the feeling of heartache. *tetiba teringat lagu ' heartache ' by Bonnie*. And now I felt it again. It made me hard to breath, but sometimes it made me smile. See?? Ein's got to be crazy...And it hurts. This feeling, may change myself into a different person. Thus, I want to apologise to a person whom I made him heartache without my intention to doing so. That is why people says that love can be hurting, or it can be pleasant to us. Well, depends on the situation I thought. I would love to say the yes word easily or to love you back but it is just so hard for me.
Maybe my heart is just like a stone, its very cold. But it needs a person to know how to warm it. I dont ask to be a couple who see each other every day. Not a couple to spent time intimately all the time. I just need the one who can bare with me, be my best friend, be my friend, who I have fun and enjoy with, playing around with, tease me, be my guidence in the future, bare with my personalities, my actions, who can control me but not controlling me. Do not overjudge me yet, if you do, you will say I am evil. please... Sometimes, it is not that I don't want but it is just that I can't but I want. And sometimes I may look like I'm playing around or fooling around, but on the other side, what is serious, I'll take it seriously and take a deep thinking about it. It took me a lot of time and I really need time to think about it.
But now, I've already fallen for you and I don't know why or how. It happens again. Never thought of it. Once, I have waited for a person honestly before this, even I hate it but I was still waiting for him. For your information, I've waited for 3 years secara tak sengaja. Maybe I haven't found any other one, but now, I hope you can erased those memory of mine. And I give a part permission to the key of a part of my heart. Al tough you know, we cannot give all of our heart to a person, because there may be nothing left for our own self. Right? So, what will I do know now?
Lets stop here, as I will make you confuse more and more. hihi. Thats why I can't stop thinking once I think and my toughts may change as times goes by.
=.=' can't believe wrote this long. ein..ein..
^_^dot.
I forgot the feeling of heartache. *tetiba teringat lagu ' heartache ' by Bonnie*. And now I felt it again. It made me hard to breath, but sometimes it made me smile. See?? Ein's got to be crazy...And it hurts. This feeling, may change myself into a different person. Thus, I want to apologise to a person whom I made him heartache without my intention to doing so. That is why people says that love can be hurting, or it can be pleasant to us. Well, depends on the situation I thought. I would love to say the yes word easily or to love you back but it is just so hard for me.
Maybe my heart is just like a stone, its very cold. But it needs a person to know how to warm it. I dont ask to be a couple who see each other every day. Not a couple to spent time intimately all the time. I just need the one who can bare with me, be my best friend, be my friend, who I have fun and enjoy with, playing around with, tease me, be my guidence in the future, bare with my personalities, my actions, who can control me but not controlling me. Do not overjudge me yet, if you do, you will say I am evil. please... Sometimes, it is not that I don't want but it is just that I can't but I want. And sometimes I may look like I'm playing around or fooling around, but on the other side, what is serious, I'll take it seriously and take a deep thinking about it. It took me a lot of time and I really need time to think about it.
But now, I've already fallen for you and I don't know why or how. It happens again. Never thought of it. Once, I have waited for a person honestly before this, even I hate it but I was still waiting for him. For your information, I've waited for 3 years secara tak sengaja. Maybe I haven't found any other one, but now, I hope you can erased those memory of mine. And I give a part permission to the key of a part of my heart. Al tough you know, we cannot give all of our heart to a person, because there may be nothing left for our own self. Right? So, what will I do know now?
Lets stop here, as I will make you confuse more and more. hihi. Thats why I can't stop thinking once I think and my toughts may change as times goes by.
=.=' can't believe wrote this long. ein..ein..
^_^dot.
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